Not a Real Man

I am sitting on the tip of my bed looking at my wife slowly take off her clothes. She is clearly putting on her sexiest show in an effort to arouse me. When she took off my pants she tried to be seductive about it, too. All I could think was “I hope she doesn’t touch my flaccidity,” “If she realizes I don’t have an erection yet it’ll kill the moment.”
She keeps undressing and now she looks at me. I am thinking I should be loving it, but I can’t stop thinking about not getting an erection. Not yet. I am glad I still have my shirt on. I’ve grown so fat lately. I really don’t get what she sees in me.
In an effort to describe this stressful situation I wrote a Stress Log for my cognitive therapist:
Stress Log CBT exercise