{"id":48,"date":"2012-10-01T19:19:27","date_gmt":"2012-10-02T02:19:27","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/?p=48"},"modified":"2014-11-22T18:07:16","modified_gmt":"2014-11-23T02:07:16","slug":"i-no-longer-have-a-life","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/i-no-longer-have-a-life\/","title":{"rendered":"I No Longer Have a Life"},"content":{"rendered":"

What a night I had last night! I don’t know if I slept at all. It seems like every time I was starting to doze off Emma woke up crying. Taking care of her is consuming all my energy. I no longer have time for anything else.<\/p>\n

I felt very depressed last night. I remembered what my cognitive therapist<\/a> said about negative thoughts causing negative emotions so I tried to be aware of all my negative thinking. I paid attention not only to the most obvious phrases in the very front of my mind, but I also noticed the running\u00a0commentary\u00a0in the back of my mind. I was thinking things like \u00a0 “What a big mistake”.\u00a0The\u00a0additional thinking that came together with these more overt thoughts was something like: “I am an awful person for thinking having a baby was a mistake”, “Thinking\u00a0this was a mistake is like wishing her dead”, “I am a terrible mother.”<\/p>\n

Here’s a picture of my Stress Log Exercise were I rated my emotions and described some more automatic negative thoughts:<\/p>\n

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What a night I had last night! I don’t know if I slept at all. It seems like every time I was starting to doze off Emma woke up crying. Taking care of her is consuming all my energy. I no longer have time for anything else. I felt very depressed last night. I remembered […]<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":1,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"closed","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[1],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-48","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","hentry","category-uncategorized"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/1"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=48"}],"version-history":[{"count":8,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":142,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/48\/revisions\/142"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=48"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=48"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/www.cbt-examples.com\/mia\/cbt-post-partum-depression-blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=48"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}